Sunday, October 26, 2008

I'm confused. How am I supposed to compete with all the people you love? And I KNOW you love them more than me, because you love them both ways and me only one. And I know you're not trying to and I know you don't know this, but I'm starting to be pushed off to the side. And I don't know how I'm supposed to make you love me as much as them, because you don't love me the other way, and I don't WANT you to love me the other way either. I guess I'm just not as interesting as them, then. Well, I'm trying not to be hurt or jealous, but I'm failing. And I'm afraid that it'll always be like this, and I really really HATE writing this, because I don't want to make things more difficult, but I just want to know what I'm supposed to do to make up for the fact that I'm not as good as they are. Because trust me, I want to be better to you.

2 comments:

EverythingEventuallyDeviates said...

Stop shitting yourself.
You are a million and four times better than 99.9% of the people I know.
And you're AT LEAST 50 times better than the other 0.1%.

Andrea said...

Hee, why thankyou. I have the occasional depressed period, usually between 6 and 7. Please excuse my mood swings.