I want to forget this whole thing, and I don't ever want to think about what you said to me ever again. I don't ever want to fight with you again, except the only way to do that would probably be to just... leave... you... I can't do that. I don't know if I'd rather hear you say "fuck you" a thousand more times or listen to you tell me to go away and leave you alone and to just stop talking more than I'd rather never get to touch you again. I am completely incapable of cutting you out of my life. You haven't trapped me, you haven't forced me to love you so much that I can't escape. I just don't want to leave, so much to the point that I am physically incapable of going. Without you I'm destroyed, which is selfish of me, but I just can't function when we're on terms like this. All I want right now, is for you to come back, and to forgive me, and to promise that you'll never put me down like that again. I've already forgiven you, and I've already apologized. You say you want me to fix this one, but I don't know how I'm supposed to do that. It was my fault to start with, but if you care about me as much as you say, and I feel you do, then you would never do that to me again.

/hardcore mind-vomit @ the boy I love