It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.

I can't understand; comprehend; believe;  accept; imagine.

How I could have possibly; utterly; actually; literaly.

Forgotten; abandoned; omitted; lost; blotted out.

How happy; content; joyful; peaceful; sparkling.

I was when I was sad; gloomy; bitter; dejected.

"It suprised her how much she actually missed from her own personal dark ages."