Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Lies.

People keep telling me how amazing I am. How wonderful, funny, smart, pretty and talented I am.
And I don't believe them one little bit. I'll admit my lack of self-confidence is borderline severe, but honestly, if you tell me how awesome I am, I wont believe you. I'm not even being delusional, I have my reasons. My reasons are really just one reason, which is this: normally almost immediately after I've been complimented, something is done or said or implied that completely crushes any confidence I may have built up. Normally the confidence crushing is done by the same people who tried to build it up in the first place. It's a strange world I live in. So all these people trying to make me feel good about myself, well, it's not really working. Because you're all starting to make me feel like a hideously awkward talentless freak of an airhead with no brain. I appreciate the effort, and I love how you all care, but it seems to be having the opposite effect.

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