Jumping

What happened?

What I would give to go back and show them.

I've changed, and you know what, it's for the better.

I don't care if I'm too in the middle.

And in the least comfortable sense of the word.

I fluctuate.

I'm too innocent. Too daring. Too loud, too shy.

Too smart and too silly. Too square and too different.

Just because I'm everything at the wrong time,

Doesn't mean that it's the wrong time for me.

And if I'm travelling on a different channel,

Well then, I'm the lucky one. 

I don't know anyone who loves this world more than I do.

And I wish I knew when it was I started thinking.

I want to know when I woke up.

It cant've been that day in the mirror, 

But I'm thinking it's possible.

As horrible that change was,

In to the scared disoriented thing that I was.

And I wish I could back and un-grow up,

As childish as I seem right now.

I made a mistake that year, I think,

But I think that was the worse, and I didn't even notice.

I want to go back and say, "Ha!"

Look at me everyone.

I'm somewhere happy and successful and loved.

I just noticed a bit later than everyone else.

And a bit sooner than some.

You guys, wake up soon, you have it good.

This just means I'll appreciate it more than I ever have.

I want to show how much I love this world,

Because I never noticed before,

How beautiful it is to be alive.

And how beautiful it is to be living.