I have food and water. I have a nice house, a family who adores and loves me. I get a generous allowance, and am part of a wealthy family living in a rich suburb. I get good grades, I don't have any disorders, I have friends, a fairly good body. I'm perfectly healthy, and fit. I play in a soccer league, and go shopping with my mom. I have the perfect life. Compared to starving children in Africa, I live in heaven. If I'm unhappy, I'm being an ungrateful spoiled brat, and should be thinking of the less fortunate.
But I'm SAD. And I don't think that I shouldn't be aloud to feel anything but content without being called a drama queen, or a brat, or ungrateful. Because in all those movies about people with perfect lives, they always have one tiny bit of emotion or hurt buried deep down, which, of course, instantly humanizes them.
So, why aren't I allowed to have everything, and still be sad? I don't think that's fair. I think I should still be allowed to be (lame, I know), heartbroken. I should be allowed to feel self-concious, and I should be allowed to feel like someone worth feeling sorry for.
I know I'm not nearly as brave or strong as starving children in Africa, I know they go through more than I do in my life every single day. I know that they want food and clean water and love. But EVERYONE wants something. Even if they just feel like a cookie, and there aren't any left. Even if they want to talk to someone after they've just spent the whole day with them. Even if they want to have an affair along with an amazing relationship. Every will always need something else. I don't think we should be accused of being ungrateful and selfish for being human.
Would you say I was selfish for wanting a boyfriend, when there's a girl out there with a boyfriend who abuses her, who wants nothing more to stay as far away as possible from him? To me, you could say, "At least you don't have an abusive boyfriend." And to her, you could say, "At least you have someone to fulfill you." I dont think that girl is ungrateful, I tihnk she's suffering, and I feel sorry for her. And I dont think I'm being ungrateful, becuase I'm heartbroken, and that is not generally considered a desirable state of being.
I will always want something.
Everyone will always want something.
And I don't blame them.
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Tuesday, September 9, 2008
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